life with a new baby
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Wow. Just wow.
May 28th
Ever had the feeling your cell phone was stalking you? Ok, me neither. But I’ve always been a tad wary of technology, and this article I came across explains why perfectly.
The Latest Buzz
Apr 7th
We have a Bradford tree in front of our house, and as you can see in the pictures, it’s blooming. Well, the other day, the whole damn thing was coated from top to bottom with a superkazillion ravenous bees.
That’s a lot for someone who is freakishly afraid of bees.
That day, the day with the superkazillion bees buzzing around, I had some errands to run. So I go through the whole gamut of getting myself ready and then getting Nathan ready. I carry him out to the car and start to buckle him into his car seat. All of a sudden, I hear the telltale BZZZZZ and a huge, I mean HUUUUGE, wasp buzzed right by my unsuspecting head and into the car. Without any hesitation, I scooped Nathan up into my arms and slammed the door closed.
Only that meant the damn thing had no way to get out of the car. So I couldn’t go anywhere.
So I opened the door back up again and darted as fast as I could back into the house. I waited a couple of minutes, set Nathan down in his play yard, and nervously ventured back outside only to discover THREE bumble bees flying near the open and inviting car door. I swallowed my fear, ran to the car, slammed the door closed, and hastily retreated back into my house.
By then, it was too late to go anywhere. I had missed my window of opportunity, and Nathan would be needing his nap soon. So after Nathan’s nap, I looked in the car and amazingly, saw no bees. Amazingly. So I was able to get my errands done after all, but was pretty irritated that one single rogue wasp has thrown my initial plans out of whack.
So anyway, I stood behind the safety of our front door and took some pictures of that tree in our front yard. The one that was practically alive with bees. There were so many bees (and other flying insects) that I was able to get some pictures of all the activity.
Amazingly, for as many bees as there were flying around the tree, it was hard to get a close-up of them as they circled around the flowers. Do not ask me how long I stood there or how many pictures I took. Let’s just say that I am… persistent.
A Key to Sids Found
Feb 12th
Scientists think they’ve finally found a tangible link to SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)… and that link is Serotonin levels in the brain. (Click here to read the article.) Hopefully, this new lead will help doctors and scientists develop screening tests for newborns to assess who is at a higher risk of SIDS.
I worried incessantly about Nathan when he slept. I was constantly getting up and checking on him, making sure he was still breathing. I was so scared something would happen to the little guy. So we took all the precautions we could… no soft bedding or blankets, put him to sleep on his back, turned on a fan for air circulation, tried using a pacifier at night, and we kept the room between 65-70 degrees as recommended by the American Academy of Pediatrics.
But still. You never know.
Now that Nathan is approaching his one year birthday (can you believe it? A YEAR OLD!!) I feel much better now that his risk of dying from SIDS has drastically declined. But then there are always other things to worry about. Especially when I have to drive him somewhere. I’m a good driver, but it’s other people that worry me.
Especially those of you who text and drive, which I wrote about in this post. Speaking of which, have you heard about Oprah’s No Phone Zone campaign? You should check it out and sign the pledge… click here to do so.
I try to take each day as it comes and not let life’s “what if’s” burden me too much. We only live once. And I don’t want to spend my life worrying about what I cannot control.
Boogers in Abnormal Places
Nov 20th
So today, after I laid Nathan down for his nap, I tip-toed quietly out of his room in the hopes that he wouldn’t notice my departure.
I successfully make it to the living room and am about to sit down and enjoy one of my pre-recorded episodes of House because lately, for some reason, I cannot sleep when Nathan naps. I have been plagued with this fear that something’s going to happen to him… he’s going to die of SIDS or he’s going to get his legs stuck in the crib railing and rip them off or he’s going to morph into a little moth and flutter his way out of room.
YOU NEVER KNOW.
I’m just terrified that something will happen to him, something that I could have prevented if only I had been awake. These feelings won’t go away. In fact, they’ve been getting stronger. I’m not normally one to subscribe to superstitions, but lately I’ve heard so many stories about babies passing away unexpectedly that it has started to weigh me down, like if it happened to this person then it could happen to me.
I’m sure these feelings will pass soon, these New Mommy Jitters. Nathan is nearly 9 months old now. He’s made it this far; I don’t see why he would suddenly pass away out of the clear blue.
So anyways, I stay awake so I can keep checking on him after he falls asleep. IF he falls asleep. So I was sitting there, about to turn on the TV when my ear starts itching.
Like every other normal person on earth, I scratch it. I felt something small and hard. I grab it with my fingernail, assuming it was a piece of ear wax. Normal people get ear wax.
It was not ear wax.
IT WAS A BOOGER.
A dried, crusty ball of Nathan Booger.
I know it was Nathan’s booger because earlier in the day, I tried to lay him down for a nap unsuccessfully. After a few minutes of hearing him cry, I relented and rescued him from his comfortably plush prison.
He had snot all over his face, his hands… crusted in his eyebrows.
I wiped the snot off, but apparently, I didn’t get it all off of his hands because shortly after that, he inserted his finger in my ear. That was when he must have deposited his booger.
I am beginning to realize I can’t exactly say I have a normal life anymore… I had a displaced booger temporarily residing in my ear.
Not really normal, huh? Well, actually… it just might be normal for a Mommy.
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