Archive for March, 2012
Well, we are finally feeling back to our old selves since Nathan and I both came down with the flu. Nathan bounced back quicker than I did… It surprised me how long it took for me to start feeling better. I’m very healthy- I eat right, exercise 4x a week, and take care of myself, so you’d think I would have recuperated more quickly. I guess some sicknesses like some people more than others.
Speaking of being healthy, this is the first time in a looooooong time that I am actually looking forward to bathing suit season! I’ve lost so much weight. I’ve gone down SIX dress sizes and I look and FEEL better than I have in years! Once I have my official weigh-in at the gym, I’ll post my results. It’s been hard work; this weight loss is not something that just fell into my lap. I had to really work for it. People ask me all the time how I do it, and I can sum it all up in one powerful word: WILLPOWER. Seriously. I got to the point where I wasn’t going to take one more minute of one more day being overweight. I have a small frame, and my body is not made to carry around a bunch of extra weight. My bones and joints ached constantly from carrying all that weight around, and I decided to do something about it. I FORCED myself to do a lifestyle change. And then, those days of forcing myself to live differently turned into weeks, and those weeks into months, and what started out as me forcing myself to do something turned into a habit. That habit became easier over time, and now I look back at the sedentary lifestyle I was living, and the unhealthy eating habits I was indulging in, and I ask myself WHAT WAS I THINKING?
So now I am just mere pounds from reaching my weight-loss goal. I’ve surpassed my weight-loss goal size, so the numbers on the scale don’t really mean much to me. I’ve built up quite a bit of muscle, so I weigh more than other people who are my size. My abs are rockin’ … I totally have a “four-pack” going on!
I haven’t been to the gym in a while due to my shoulder problems and then getting sick, so I am looking forward to getting back in there and getting back on track. Life is good!
It’s been a few days since I’ve been able to write. Nathan and I came down with the flu, even though we had our flu shots. I came down with it first and let me tell you, it was horrible. It started out with a mild cough and then slowly (very slowly, as in over the course of a number of days) progressed into a nasty sore throat, violent coughing, fever, and agonizing body aches and pains. The sore throat started on Monday but by Tuesday, I was completely incapacitated to the point that I was unable to care for Nathan. Paul had to come home from work so he could watch him, even though he was slightly sick with something as well. Fortunately, whatever he had didn’t make him as sick as Nathan and I were. I was in such agony that I could barely walk.
Wednesday, severe dizziness and lightheadedness set in, so I was stuck in bed all day that day as well. By Thursday, I was still dizzy and lightheaded, but I thought I could manage to get some vacuuming done. While I was vacuuming, I started having a hard time breathing and I almost passed out… my vision went black and I had to really focus and concentrate to keep from passing out completely. I called my mom, but she was working. I called my mother-in-law to see if she had any advice on how to stave off dizziness, and she replied that she was going to come get me and take me to the doctor.
So I went to the doctor who told me I had the flu, and I was also experiencing complications such as severe bronchitis and an alarming amount of fluid in my lungs. Not just mucus, but fluid. She became concerened and said that I was on the cusp of develping pneumonia and that we had hopefully caught in the nick of time. She said that had I waited until the next day to see her, I would have been in the hospital instead. So after a breathing treatment and prescriptions for multiple medications to prevent pneumonia, I went home to rest.
By Saturday, I was so dizzy and the vertigo was so severe that I was once again confined to bed. The whole room seemed to be spinning around me and I couldn’t keep my balance. I was vomiting up everything and still having a hard time breathing.
Today, I am feeling somewhat better. I am able to breathe better but the dizziness and lightheadedness still persist. I am seriously ready for this to be over! I was trying to get some light housework done (because I’m sure you can imagine the mess with me being out of commission for a week) and I almost fainted while I was bent over doing the litterboxes. (Can you imagine passing out in a litterbox?? EWW!)
This illness really dug into me and doesn’t want to let go.
Nathan, on the other hand, has bounced back nicely. He was really sick as well, but not nearly as sick as I was.
And oh… while I was at the doctor, she said I was wheezing severely when I was breathing in and out, so that reminded me that I wheeze a lot normally and especially during exercise or when it’s cold outside. Come to find out, she said I have asthma. Apparently, many people have their first asthma attack when they’re around my age (early 30’s). So now I have an inhaler and all that. Who woulda thought?
Well, I feel like I need to lay down for a few minutes because the room is starting to spin again… let’s hope I can hurry up and kick this flu to the curb becuase I am ready to be myself again!
You know how we’ve been having a bear of a time convincing Nathan to stay in bed at night? Well, you won’t believe this. Finally, after weeks of trying everything we could think of, there has been- gasp!– improvement!
Nathan’s still getting up at night, but only 1-3 times as opposed to multiple times. When I open the door and tell him he’s not supposed to be up, he’ll dive back into bed, cover himself with his blanket, and tell me he’s sorry and that he loves me. (He’s good at pulling my heartstrings, let me tell ya). We let him have a flashlight and a book and sometimes a toy (if he’s been really well-behaved that day) and now when he accidentally drops something off his bed, he will call for us to come help him rather than get out of bed.
I’m very proud of him for minding.
I’m learning that parenting is a work in progress. What works now may not work in a few weeks. In order to parent effectively, I think that parenting should be fluid. You do what works, and when something doesn’t work, you stop and switch to another tactic. Being a parent is no joke- at least not when you’re serious about being the best parent you can be. Children are such sponges; they soak up everything around them. They are molded by their parents. It’s pretty sobering to think about, huh? Who Nathan turns out to be as an adult will be a direct result of how I parented him as a child.
Let’s hope that I’m doing something right…